ok you got some sense into me over the day, yeah i was on a right crappie one today but you guys where all here for me,well the ones who was'nt of doing what ya got to do nice to be able to just say 'hey ya know i feel shite like all is going wrong' and you are there, so thankyou for being on end of txts and this little corner of cyberWorld for me, helped a hell of alot,and no honestly the cancer is very treatable its just some cells that go funny every now and again DONT WORY IM POPPING THE PILLS AS TOLD lol ....and hey ya kow where i am if you ever need me....Nooo cookie that dont mean i will rush up and bring ya cash otherside of london like last time haha..

 

Anyways thankyou guys been with me since the beginning and will always be with me ..... till the end x 

carnt really be bothered to add much just not in the mood sorry all, its all going wrong!!

 

Got my results back from the docs....the cancer is back, so back on the dam tabs haaa RIGHT NOW I DONT BLOODY NEED THIS!!!....ill fight it like i did before when i can find the strength from somewhere to care enough, right now as in this minute i carnt be bothered.

 

Got my results back from my last assignment, what a ferk up i made of that putting it bluntly, so now i got a resubbmission as well as having a deadline of 15th april for next two assignments....well ferked off i am at mo maybe annoyed is the word i dont know and right this minute dont give a flying dam either AARRGGHH

 

Spending  all night sleeping in a hospital chair with daughter dont bloody help anything, shes ok but dam if she did as she was bloody told the accident would'nt of happened.....bloody kids right at this min i feel like when the social worker turns up at the door she can take ALL 3 of em with her,

 

 

just dont need any of this right now....oh what the hell am i doing!! anybody ,please tell me why its ALL going so wrong right now