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    4/30/2009

    Magical weekend- 24th-26th April...

    There is a place out there, it isnt a hotel, it isnt a B&B, neither is it a holiday camp. It's a world all on it's own, that goes on for miles and miles, you stand in this place has though there is only you there, standing in amongst nothing but open space, air that is so fresh you feel alive, where everything has freedom!
     
    This place is somewhere where when you first arrive, it is just a 'place', amongst aload of fields, trees and  a stream with rocks. Just a 'place' with a forest, and wildlife...
    A place so tranquil and free you lose yourself.... almost immediatly, taking in the scenery, the views, the birds twitting, the stream flowing, the rustling of the leaves on the trees, ...the sound of nothing but peace and harmony.
     
    This place is so free that children can be children and play safely. On first arriving i sat with total strangers, first thought was this 'place' is for us adults to relax, enjoy the away from real life time, whilst the children played .....
     
    and listened to storys made up has the story went along...
     
    First thoughts was, we adults played games with each others children if they wanted us to, helped them if they asked us to, sat and drank coffee if we wanted to, had our food cooked for us, chatted amongst the adult strangers, who by the end of the first night was no longer strangers. And told our own children to not jump on chairs and tables. Made bunkbeds into dens using sheets, and read books by torchlight whilst listening to the rain hammer against  the windows and the wind whistle through the trees.
    First thoughts was, we all sat in a circle and played games with these not so much strangers now, getting to know each other, not on a personal scale but  by laughing, playing games such has 'when the wind blows' (which by sunday morning had been changed to when the knickers blow lol), listening to the bounderies of the grounds, where we could go and where the limits was, listening to how in that direction was the magical forest, in the other was where dinosours lived, to the top right was a yurt where magical things happened, has we listened i sat thinking it's' immagination magic just for the kids', but and slowly letting home leave my mind.
     
    First thoughts,.... was has an adult!
     
     
    Saturday, this place i woke up to, with the sound of the stream, the birds chirpping, thoughts of our walk in the magical forest in the dark the night before, where the ones that went out (little one and myself included), formed a circle, held hands, closed our eyes and absorbed the night air and the noises  came across my mind.
     
     Our walk early saturday morning has a group was one of exploring, where adults and children alike took part in the magic of imagination.
     With the sun slowly coming through the clouds, the exploring took us to a tree, has the wind blew, the tree swayed, each time it swayed the earth and ground moved, that tree was soon to be renamed 'the breathing tree'. A sheet pulled across two trees was a magic portal to that forest, all was soon to  become  part of adult imagination.....!
      DSCF0875.jpg picture by CadCrazy
     
     
    ...After lunch saturday we formed our now regulur circle has a group and was told how all the children was going on their own adventure of dinnosur hunting .....>> thata way,... and we, the adults was going to have our own adventure starting in the yurt.
    The yurt is very much like a wig-wam, with a wooden frame on the inside and strong windproof fabric pulled around it, tee lights gave it a warm glow and the little camping stove gave out enough heat for that warmth feel, has we, the adults sat on cushions with our brews we listened to how this magical place which was slowly becoming a part of not just myself but us all had come about, how this 'place' in the middle of nothing but open space came from one womens own personal experience, her own adventure has an adult, one womens own imagination was brought back to being a child...
     
    Little did the group know that we was going to have a 20minute adventure of our own!..
     
    We was to find a spot, not jut any spot, but where ever caught our eye first,... mine was a stone wall.
    We was to walk, and keep walking towards that spot,... i walked to the wall
    Then when we had got to or has close to that spot has we possibly could, we was to stop or carry on walking, but take it all in, noises, movement, the air, everything...
    And at the end of the 20mins, a noise would be sounded at which point we was to pick up something that caught our eye and bring it back to the yurt.
     
    ...for 20 minutes i stood at this stone wall, watching cows the otherside,the sun shine across the fields has the clouds moved across its light, how it turned one field a golden yellow colour whilst the others was much darker, the gentle flow of the water in the stream, birds chirrping, it was just me, in an open space, in my own world ... My 20 minutes had begun!
     
     
    Something during that 20 minutes changed me, i cannot say how, and cannot really describe it, mainly because i do not have the answer...Something magical happened, (and now you think i have lost the plot eh)?? Well you soon will !!
     
    During that 20minutes that stone wall was not a stone wall..
    it was a boundery, i could not go through it, could not climb over it, that stone wall became my limit, i wanted to walk towards those fields with the sun shining on them, to feel that sun shine on my face, stand in that feild, just me and nobody else, only i  was not to cross that boundery or go over it...
     
    It reverted me somehow back to being a child, a child with a boundery, i was not allowed to go over, during those 20 minutes, i thought of the girls and what limits and bounderies i put on my own children has a mother, the bounderies and limits i  have for years now not just put on myself but the girls since being school ages i have drilled into them, and all because of my epelepsy!
     
    When i turned from that stone wall, my bounderie, i saw everything from the eyes of a child...and with tears in my eyes i picked up a piece of moss from that bounderie and walked back to the yurt to meet up with the group and listen to others expierence and tell my own.  
     
    From that saturday afternoon i went back to being that child and teenager, the girls had no bounderies, i found myself actually playing with the girls and me having an imagination has a child and not has an adult!.....
     
     
     
     
     
    Saturday early evening, we went back in the magic forest, on the search for wish sticks and a stick  for toasted marshmellows
     
     
    The outside fire was lit, we painted our wish stick  drew our wishes on a tag and after tea the group made our way outside into the cold and breezy air to tell our wishes to the group if we wanted, and throw them on the fire, sticking mashmellows on a stick where adults helped the children toast their own marshmellows in the fire.
     
    Afterwards we all went indoors, sat in the circle again and told how we felt in a word or movement and was given 'free time'..some went back into the forest, others went for showers (although the indoors was too cold for us has limited heating) i stayed and played with the girls, of which at home i don't get time often if at all to do.
     
    The girls had no bedtime, they could eat has much has they wanted when they wanted, do what they wanted, and play what they wanted. I suddenly found that when the girls was eventually tired and bedtime came i didn't sit with a book, i was making my own imaginative stories up by torchlight, the girls laughed at mummy being silly, it was nice to see.
     
    Suddenly it was sunday morning, the night had been very cold but i slept soundly cuddled up to little one, with a sad feeling in my stomach of it being our last few hours at this magical place, i put the girls clothes back in their cases, took the bedding off the bunks, and went down the spiral steps for brekkie.
    I felt different, felt like suddenly overnight i had loads of energy, felt like i was a new person full of life and decided that i was going to carry on enjoying every minute of those hours left and make sure the girls did too,   i danced to the 'deh oh' song from beetlejuice whilst helping  put the tables back in the storeroom, the girls laughed, we played guess who untill it was circle time with the group and we was off on another adventure in the forest...
     
    The forest seemed different, strange really a kind of happy feeling came over me has we entered the forest there was dragon footprints in the mud...
     We played follow my leader through the magic forest singing the song 'we don't know but we believe...',
    The trees has we passed took a shape all of there own.
    I wasn't looking at trees has i was before, i was seeing them has a child, maybe i was taking more notice of the shape, i really don't know, but suddenly trees where touching each other has though stopping them from falling, trees was wizards and the shape of trees was has though they was running, i bet you think i gone mad now eh??...  but look and see it has a child sees it.... Can you see it?
      DSCF0848.jpg picture by CadCrazy
     
     Suddenly we stopped for a game,  we paired up with someone from the group, one person was blind folded and the other was their gurdian angel stopping them bumping into trees, the idea was that the person blindfolded followed the drum beat without the gurdian angel touching or speaking to them. I have never felt so safe, with a guy i have only known for 2 nights and 3 days! 
     
    We all headed back indoors for our last time has a group in the circle where we went through how we felt, many was now sad including myself has the hours left and  had turned into an hour.
     
    We all layed on the floor heads touching bodys relaxed eyes closed, has the women who had made all this happen reflected over everything we had done,... every expierence we had all had,.... every adventure, right down to the food we had eaten.
      DSCF0960.jpg picture by CadCrazy
     
     When i sat up, there was a postcard layed at our feet, we had to draw the one thing from the whole weekend that we never wanted to forget, mine was the stone wall, my boundery. Those postcards at some point in the future, when all our expierences are a distant memory, we will have through the post a reminder. The hour had gone by so quick, soon it would be time to leave this magical place, has the thought soon hit i couldn't help but sit back in the circle for the very last time with tears coming down my face has i had realized that the imagination i thought my mum had given me was not imagination, it was more making my own 'childs play' up, i was passing this onto the girls, today i know how to have that imagination i should of had has a child.
    Has the hour closed in and we had 5 minutes to go we had a group photo and one of the people from the group took a photo of me with the girls before we got our things got into the taxi and was on our way home...back to reality of home life.
    It is all down to one women who has changed my life for the better with the girls, who has shown me how to change a forest into  a magical adventure!
     
    This magical place will stay in my heart and the girls hearts forever!! ...
     
     What is the name of this 'place' out in the open with nothing but freedom all around?
    eyeshine - The place where you see everything from the eyes of a child!
    4/29/2009

    WHooo!!, I CAME HOME TO A PATIO :-D

    Has it says on the err tin so to speak, i came home to a patio...with sun on it, YIPPEEE!!
     
     
    Bro no 1 certainly got of his ass with my backgarden, come rain or shine, he did it, :-D He levelled out the ground, took up paving slabs, took most if not all weed roots out the soil before laying the slaps in the new patio area,  backgardenredo5.jpg picture by GamerChick007_album which i have to say from my bedroom window resembles something of a kite. He is still to come back at some point and lay 3 more slaps to the right of what is already layed, and despite the rain, i would say he has done a dam good job, he has put gass seed down so in about 6 weeks time (keeping said dog of the it)  backgardenredo4.jpg picture by GamerChick007_album
     i should have a new patch of grass coming up, far bottom of the new patio. Apparently i need to add a box of seed once a week to the seed down already so the grass will grow thick.
     
     
     
    Near finished new patio, ...
    Closer to summer and once the 3 more slaps are layed, i am buying a wooden patio set, not sure if  the rectangular ones with 2 benches either side, and 2 chairs each end or a round one with curved benches, Not sure what which would look best, has to have a parosol, so i can see my lappy in the sun :-D Add a few statues, and some other garden ornaments too. Bro no1 has left it at, i design my garden, how i want it, he will do it...although any pool of ANY sort it totally out the limits lol.
     
    Just one question left ...
     
     
     backgardenredo6.jpg picture by GamerChick007_album .... What EXACTLLY am i meant to do with the left over mud an grass??!! (to right of patio in photos) :-S
     
    Cheers bro :-)
    4/24/2009

    World Earth Day 22 April..Blogging about it err, today!

    World Earth Day i guess is one of those events you either support in some way, wheather that be via support or via just recycling houshold waste, or you are not interested in it, has whatever happens to the world, well will be!
     
    I had that attitude untill recently, i recycled, yes, but i never had an understanding on the why's or how more i can contribute.
    World Earth Day and the programme surrounding it has helped me have a more in depth understanding, and  having that little bit more knowledge has helped me with my current course work unit and the question,-
     
    'From your own expierences and research, give your detailed views on the responsibilities of the modern Interior Designer in terms of the need to consider ecological issues such has the conservation of non- renewable resources.'
     
    Now i have no idea if i have actually answered the above question from my own expierence but most deffinatly have through research!, Once i handed this unit in for marking , (hopfully next week, just have concept boards to do STILL) i will know if my own expierences are detailed enough to of answered the above question.!
     
    World Earth day! for anyone who is interested or would like to know how you can get involved for 2010...
    And one for the kids, so they also can make their own contribution and have an understanding.
     
    The girls insight to having their own personal expierence on 'green living' and the enviroment, has well has freedom, starts tomorrow night at 1830 and finishes Sunday 1500, Will be able to tell you more after the weekend, has i  have no idea right now what to expect once there,  however it is guranteed to be a magical expierence for the girls and myself, where they can play has children should be able to, in very safe bounderies within a secret location,  having a long weekend devoted to nothing but play, to just enjoy being a child.
    and me....
    ...I get to be that kid all over again!!
     
    Open-mouthed
     
    PS- Bro!, Cannot wait for tomorrow,...a chef is cooking for us Yippeee, but cannot wait to get home and see my transformed  backgarden either!
     
    Have fun come rain or shine,.... we will be!  :-) 
    4/20/2009

    It's the end of the easter holidays....

    HIPP-HIPP-HIPP-HOORAY..
    It's the end of the easter holidays, and the girls are back at school...
    It's the end of the easter holidays...
    Now what should i do today...! (sung to the song, the sun has got his hat on)
     
    I have last of the washng to dry piled high in washing basket
    Have done the washing up, cleaned all bacteria and all that lurks from worktops, mopped kitchen floors
    Done a great deal of coursework!...oh that was lastnight/early hours of this morning but still today eh.
    Text my mum, see if she is still surviving, of which she is...just,  and done my rounds across  livespace network.
    Thrown the ball to Solitaire...who WILL learn that when i say the word 'leave' she either leaves or i don't play!
     
    Least i forget !,....I got the girls to school, nice and early... Ohhh i  just love it  hahaha.
     
     
    Nice quiet day, just me and Solitaire
     
    ...I could go out and mow the lawns,
    pick up yesterdays heaped sandpit, mande worse by one dog thinking she can climb into a rectangular sandpit box, errrm, stupid dog you has grown since you once could.
    Could get on with this last bit of coursework...concept boards.
    Do some CAD work, or even those garden designs my bro wants for the weekend...
     
    Dare i say it, i COULD even go and get on with the ironing, which has each load has washed and dryed is now back to being a mountain almost resembeling Mount Everest, oooo errrr!
     
    Haaa naff to that, am going to enjoy the peace and quiet of the next 3hours just me and Solitaire, in the sun!!!
     
    Have a good day ya'll
    Open-mouthed
    4/18/2009

    Anybody have the tooth fairy's number...?!

    This started about a year ago, maybe alittle over that now.

    Story goes!, 

    One day  older one's 1st tooth started wobbling, Bro no 3 back then came to the rescue in a hold her arms gently away from his arm has he pulls the tooth from that last bit of annoying gum...you know the bit that just wont let go of that tooth? Well that bit. Has older one races around showing all her fallen out tooth,I being the silly mum says, the words ''well i will have to text nanny and grandad, see if they can somehow get hold of the tooth fairy's phone number and let her know'...so back then i texts my mum and dad, shows the text to older one, who sits and awaits a call from 'the tooth fairy'....enter bro no 1 via phone (who the girls didn't know voice wise back then) Worked a treat it did. lol

     

    Only laughing today i am not!...

    Older ones tooth just drops out this morning, she comes racing into my room to shout the words 'mummy, my tooth came out QUICK, CALL THE TOOTH FAIRY'...Oh, err, errm, i told her i would do it later has 'the tooth fairy' was asleep.

    Later comes, and later goes, up pops that sentence followed with the words, ''I called nanny, the lady who picked up nannys phone shes nice, told me to leave a message after the BEEP....so i left a message '' Oh, err, errm!

     Nanny is in the hospital !

    So, onto grandad, who tells older one that he doesnt have 'fairys of any sort phone numbers, and maybe he can get the tooth fairys number when he comes back from bristol later on' ...well that just isnt good enough for a 7 year old who has already been waiting till later on older one  tells her grandad so. And then she sits moaning at grandad on the why he SHOULD have the tooth fairys number, and how he will need it for middle one and little one... at some point.

    Bro no 1 calls this afternoon, older one picks up the phone and asks...'Have you got the tooth fairys number? a lady picked up nannys phone and nanny hasn't phoned back, and grandad is useless, he told me he might get it later from brisborn'

    Bro no 1 vaguly remembering the 'tooth fairy' escapade of last year, on knowing that dad was in bristol and no where near brisborn and that later, would mean when older one was tucked up in her bed, hopfully asleep asks to speak to me. I explained,  bro no 1 asks the ultimate question of....

     

    ....How did this all start again???. Oh errr errrm!!

    It all started when me being the silly mum and not having £3 aside for 'tooth fairy' entrances thought of the,   'i will call nanny and grandad and ask them to get into with the tooth fairy' line... Oh my head hurts LOL

    *Inflation and taxes on tooth fairy have risen tremendously since i was a child...will blame the gov't and whatever they teach the girls at school ;-D

    4/15/2009

    Too iron or not to iron!....

    Wonder how many hours we spend at an ironing board..?
     
    The answer to that for me was none...zilch!, Mum buying me an ironing board 2 xmas's ago, has if a big enough hint didn't work!
    Even the iron bought  around my birthday last year was still not enough!
     
    Dont get me wrong, i DID used to iron...
     
    My own school uniform!   
    My 3 bros school uniforms!
    My bros Army cadet uniforms!...(geez bro that sure is going back some years now hahaha).
    My friends work uniforms!
     
    Infact i spend so many years ironing, when i stopped...well i stopped!
     
    How many years ago since i actualy ironed  ? Errrm! Thinking
     
    Well if i said to you that there is no point ironing babygrows that the creases fall out of in the tumble dryer, and the present girls school uniform (another 2 years before they are cadet uniforms ontop ).. well they come in crease free style, sooo you may get a round about timescale of how long??. 
     
    Creasefree =  You wash has normal, put in tumble dryer has normal and voila when you take girls school blouses out, they have no creases!
     
    Timescale = Around 4 years since i last put up an ironing board and actually held a iron long enough to say 'i did the ironing'.
     
    My days of what i like to call standalone excuses have been knocked on the head completely. For those who may need a few new excuses for not ironing well here is some i used over the years.
     
    * Creasefree is called that so you dont have to waste time, effort and leg pain, not to mention the electic standing up doing what you used to do when you really had no choice.
     
    * There isnt enough hours in the day for ironing, dont you think that the almighty one above  would of put 3 hours every other day aside just for ironing if he wanted us to iron!
     
    * I will call up that advert i saw in the shop window for that women who loves ironing so dam much she wants more!...(and then never get around to it).
     
    Many many more i used, the list has well  been exhusted...
     
    So why now?-
     
    Simple answer to the above! Older one has decided to grow somewhat bigger/taller or at least her arms have grown longer, and now because of this, NOT NEEDED RIGHT NOW 'spurt growth', i was left with no choice but to go out and buy new girls school blouses, put up that  ironing board from 2 xmas's ago, (cheers mum,) ...go out and buy a new iron, so bought one with a base unit, (Will keep other has spare)...and iron EVERYTHING 
     
    All i am left muttering under my breath is -
     
    Dam whoever it is who decided to stop making crease free school blouses  once the child outgrows aged 6-7years. That person has just taken hours out of my once happy weekly schedule !!!
     
    Sooo just to prove that i didnt FINALLY call up that women who loves ironing so much she wants more...and i never got the neighbour, women up the road, or friend who dropped by for a brew to do the ironing whilst here..
     
    Mum, dad,  bro and all who read, sit back and enjoy... DONT LAUGH  Open-mouthed  It's a STRICT once a  
    week thing!!!!...
     
    DSCF0724.jpg hate ironing picture by CadCrazy
     
     
     
     
    P.S- ANYONE KNOW OF WHERE I CAN BUY CREASFREE GIRLS SCHOOL BLOUSES, PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE WITH SHOP DETAILS.
        Thank you 
                   Open-mouthed
     
    4/8/2009

    Two Solitaire issues gone,..one more to go..!

    The issues of Solitaire staying of my bed and  being able to walk up the stairs and not down has been solved!!

    Although others advice, whilst good advice, didnt help me in the 'I cannot carry her down the stairs anymore, shes just too big and heavy' and along the lines of,-
    ..She will when she is older!
    ...Her legs are not long enough yet to master stairs!
    ..and many more.

    I had tryed the treats on the stairs and coaxing her down!.
    Tryed putting her lead on and near pulling her down!.
    Gone to the extremes of putting her over the first top step and voila she would walk down the rest of stairs by herself, but not down the stairs freely on her own!

    Untill bro no 1 calls, and i explain the situation to him, and he says, 'have the girls go downstairs, take the stair gate away from the top step, and get the girls to call her'... You wouldnt belive it but down she goes, first time of calling. Thinking

    Only err one question left,  errm how do i stop this one then lol??..

    april08solitaire.jpg solitaire 4 months old picture by CadCrazy


    It seems that the stair gate Solitaire looked at has a bounderie, a place that untill she was physically put over, she was not allowed to go over herself even though she desperatly wanted to...and guess where she slept lastnight??!.. you got it right outside the girls bedroom door, that had the above stair gate placed at it .

    And the issue of me spending past 3 weeks getting Solitaire off my bed  is solved at the same time!!... Cheers bro, you charged that braincell up for once Open-mouthed


    Just have the going the toilet on her lead to get through now,!! 




    4/6/2009

    Past put right in front of my mind AGAIN..!!

    Some of you who have been around my crazy world for awhile will know that November 2008  i blogged about something in my life that had happened between the girls and a RAF guy who i was with, something my middle daughter told me happened 7months after me and the RAF guy split, strangely enough i have middle ones birthday on 11 april has a reminder, that it will be 1 year ago.
    She told me November 2008 that he was in bed with no boxers on reading the girls a story, this of which i saw, the no boxers i still do not know 100% today if that was true or not...will say even today i will stll defend him, will still say he did nothing to the girls. (Sorry Rob if you read this at some point  i defended him when i first told you before i told Social services and the child protection team, and will STILL defend him today even though he put me through 3 weeks of the worst hell whilst Social did their report and child protection team went to the school)!
     
    Over the past year i have been with no other guy in any sort of relationship way, infact in any way at all, not sure why,  it isnt as though guys do not offer, or lay it on a table for me to just take...i just turn their offers down, and stay single. Hate it when another guy referrs to me has 'babe'.. i was only one guys 'babe' and he's the one i'm blooging about right now!! ...Am wondering if maybe it is because of past i dont EVER want to repeat, or the 'what if' if i did go there again...I question myself on this have done many times over the past year.
     
    Will get back to the reason of my blogging this .
    Very difficult for me to do!, but i feel that maybe it is why i have moved on from the RAF guy in the sense of part of me would give it a go seriously with another  guy if he was also has seriouse. But the other part of me is sat..asking questions, not only in a VERY protective way now of the girls, bcause of past, so protective that i will meet a guy, have coffee, but that is it, it goes no further, not since the RAF guy, i sit questioning myself, asking myself questions, asking myself why, even a year later!!
     
    Ok going to spit it out why my rambling on over this, past is bleeding past, gone and sorted  or is it?!!!,   
     
    This is why my rambling  http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/7984262.stm  it is as though ALL that weekend has suddenly just hit me on reading this, me trying to move on since November has all come rishing back, though it has just happened today, this morning, and i cannot help sit here and think after reading that above link... when social services said to me the words ''but what if you never saw and he came back, gained your trust, gained the trust of the girls and....'' 
     
    Yeah...what if???
     
    What if - The viagra he needed to take was nothing to do with stresses of the job??...
    What if - His favourite place to visit, Thailand, was not just for their culture or architecture??
    What if - His sweet personality and his way of winning a women over with his charm was not his 'real' personality, but a means of gaining something else, like trust??
    What if - The RAF mate  he lived with was ...oh, i dont know! 
    What if - I saw what i saw and the text i got the weekend after saying he was in a ballpool with his nephew, dead on a week after he had been on his own in a ball pool with my little one , was in actual fact his way of letting me know something else... with someone elses child, ...and because i saw him with the girls that last day he was here, he had not come back because the week after he had moved on and was doing the same with someone elses child?? ...(Not thought of that scenario before  untill reading that above tonight)
     
    Jesus why am i even thinking this naffing way, he did nothing to my three girls!!!, shouldn't that be all that should bother me, it's down to someone elses mother to report if need be isnt it. Why am i even a year naffing later right back with the guilt of that weekend,
     
    I so hope that the 7 months it took me after splitting with the RAF guy to report what i saw, what my middle daughter told me happened, that he he didnt do anything to someone elses child
    I am not saying he is some lopped up sex offender, not saying he even thought of anything in that way with the girls, he was a great guy and i still today think he just made a 5minute mistake with the girls, one that he realized and i knew, the momment i saw him in bed with the girls could of cost him his job! But i am wondering after reading that above link did i make one big mistake in taking so long to report what happened that weekend.
     
    There is one guy out there who has been with me from when my middle daughter first told me, one guy out there who sat for must of been 4-6 hours near daily basis when he finished his long day at work,  listening, reading all i told him, being there for me, right the way through  on the end of a IM a text or a phone. 
     
    Rob is a RAF lawyer!, Right now at 0215, i want to txt him, ask if he's awake and can i call him, just to ask him one question!!..
    WHY AM I STILL FEELING THIS WAY A YEAR DAM LATER, AFTER READING SOME NEWS REPORT , WHY AM I EVEN BLOGGING ABOUT THIS YET AGAIN, AND WHY THE HELL WONT I LET MYSELF GET INTO ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP OF ANY SORT WITH ANOTHER GREAT GUY????...  Haven't txt him because why the hell would he have the answers!!..and its late, he has work.
     
    I owe alot to Rob,  if it wasnt for him i dont think i would of ever reported that weekend to social services, got it out in the open via livespace, or even told my dad and bro, (Older daughter told my mum herself back then) Dont think without him being on the end of a txt or phone  i would of stayed strong for the girls back then, or today... I just have to get this dam past with the RAF guy totally out my head, and somehow stop letting news reports such has the above have me thinking about the 'What if's'  all over again!
     
    Am going to do what i did back when it happened, ...throw myself into my design stuff,!!! Totally ignore all thoughts, and questions, ...it worked back then. 
    4/5/2009

    Soilitaire - Close to 4 months old and ...

    Solitaire has had her second injection now, alittle later than the 14weeks due to recent month of being here there and all over with mum, BUT now all has calmed down on the mum side and she is home, Solitaire has had her injections....thankfully!
     
    I do not have a living room carpet, me and the girls ripped it up last year, so Solitaire goes toilet on newspaper and i just disinfect the floor, BUT have got to start getting her to go on her lead but how???
     
    Wednesday i took Soltaire on the school run....and she did nothing!!!
    Thursday again the school run, and again nothing... Was told maybe walking her about 4-5 miles round circle from my home-school-town and back home on the hope that that may work on the toilet part of things but nope still nothing!!... Instead waited till we was home and then did it.
    Friday- the same.
    Saturday - Gave it up has a bad joke and went to mums !.
     
    But on a good note!!!
     
    Soltaire has learnt to
     
    * sit
    * stay (to a point)
    * leave,
    * Here
    paw,
    * down
    * stay out of the fridge when it is open
    * GET OFF MY BED!!- Thanks mum for the stair gate. less than a week and Soltaire hardly bothers with the bed game.
    * Wakes me up has the alarm goes off with a big kiss (UCKKK) and a paw. of which i reply with 'morning solitaire'
     
    On the lead,
     
    * heels
    * sits at roads (sometimes forgets but after second 'sit' usually does just that)
    * Waits for me to say 'come on' and looks up whilst waiting
    * Leaves other dogs alone (doesnt pull me to them)
    * only barks when in the house at the anyone who comes the door or near (Have to get the barking at the girls from top of stairs when they wake up in night and stand at the bottom of the stairs sorted)..not good at 0315
     
    Solitaire gets loads of compliments and it now takes me an extra 15mins to get to the school, ALL WANT TO STOP AND CHAT VERY ANNOYING. Most of last week i was late on the school run, but think this training and Solitaire knowing who is boss is coming along nicely. (see videos on the left i have added to my livespace).
     
    Open-mouthed... rightio time for the 6 mile hike round circle with girls and dog in tow.
     
    Hope you all have had a lovely weekend.